WOW!! So another semester has absolutely flown by in the blink of an eye! I still can't believe I am on break for an entire month. I won't know what to do with myself. But the fact that this semester went by so fast has made me realize how fast May 12 will come. I leave in less than 5 months. That seems so long, but I know it will be here before I know it.
God has been revealing so much to me in these past few months in preparing my heart for this. He has exposed sins of pride and selfishness which continually forces me to recall how incredibly dependent I have to be on Him. While my Spanish gets better everyday, I still have a long way to go. (One beautiful praise is that I have never gotten so much joy out of studying in my life.) I have never been in a foreign country for more than 6 days...tonight my Dad also told me the news is reporting that drug cartels from Mexico have moved South into Guate. It is a scary truth that for 10 weeks, my safety will be drastically reduced. All of these things and more scare me, and make me realize how inadequate I am. I am so humbled by the fact that the Lord called me, even in my stubbornness, to be used by Him for an amazing mission in His name. I never saw myself as someone who would be involved in international missions, but ever since I was accepted as a CAM Intern, God has burdened my heart for international missions.
He is teaching me to daily cling to Him and press into the Spirit. It is in times when I find myself starting to rely on my own strengths and talents that God gracefully brings me to my knees and reminds me of who He is, and who I am not.
On an exciting note, several people have given me addresses to send out support packets to, including a few people who I don't even know. The amount of support I have already gotten has been overwhelming. I have also been given the opportunity to show a portion of my video in a church service at my home church in Midland on December 26. I am praying that God will provide both financial sponsors and prayer supporters who can join with me to cover this mission in prayer. In everything I have learned, I know that God is sovereign and His plan is perfect. No matter my fears or reservations, His loving call on me to this specific act of obedience has taught me and will continue to teach me SO much.
I love how amazing He is. I love how He loves. I love who He is and that I have the undeserved privilege to find my identity in Christ.
